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Jul 16

To The Left…To The Right

While following what seems to be right assures you a sense of belongingness, it still feels right to follow your heart. I was born left-handed but it didn’t bother me at all.  Being one was an advantage for me.  In fact, I was always fascinated to reversely write paragraphs in cursive.   This  “mirror-writing” ability (well, some call it a demi-goddess power, which I like better) was my weapon to keep my scribbled thoughts in secret.  It was until I reached third grade or so when I started to get conscious about everyone else using their right hand to do just everything.  I asked myself then, “Why am I doing things differently?”  The insecurity became worst when I was learning to play the guitar.  For goodness’ sake, the instructor was holding the fret with his left hand and strumming with his right, while I did the opposite. Afraid of being out-of-place, I set aside my instinctive prowess and acquired skills with my right hand.  I learned to write (not in reverse, though), hold a spoon, sketch, and even play the guitar just as how everyone else does… It was pretty tough.  I had frustrations along the way but I didn’t care because all I cared about was the pleasure of being “in”. I was delighted with my new skill that I only used my left hand whenever I am alone, but when with a crowd, I had always flaunted my newly gained expertise.  For more than 20 years, I was striving to live what appears to be right, that I left my true self behind.  I felt I belonged, but I never felt free. So now, I am again in union with my authentic being and i just feel so… myself. No regrets of being someone else, though.  Ambi-dexterity is absolutely phenomenal, after all.

mirror-writing ambidextrous

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